Monday, December 15, 2008

Visions, emotions, and purging...

The act of purging is not just a physical act. Often times in my ceremonies, my visions in the spiritual dimension cause me to purge, and even my emotions can bring about a session of vomiting. In one ceremony, I was feeling great, enjoying the love in my heart and the beautiful visins. I had been arguing with my girlfriend the day before, however, and at one point in the ceremony, I felt a tremendous sadness.
It was the emotions of the day before coming back up. I didn´t understand it at first, and began to wonder why I was so sad all of a sudden. Then, I quickly felt the urge to vomit and did so. After that, I felt much better, much happier. I analyzed the situation to understand that it was the emotions that I had surpressed during our argument. It was good to get rid of those suppressed emotions, for they could later manifest into a physical illness. This happens a great deal, especially in cases of childhood trauma.
spirit, mind, and body are all connected. Like the water in the ocean, there are depths that may catagorize different realms, yet it is all the same water. So, too, do we have realms within us, and within those realms there are other realms, like within the mind we say there is the unconscious and the conscious, but it is the same mind, and even the deepest parts of the mind can be accessed and healed.
Ayahuasca is like a submarine, allowing us to explore the entire ocean of our being. We must learn how to drive this craft, however, and most importantly, we must have faith that it will safely bring us back to the surface, so that we can enter into the depths without fear. It is amazing what you will find down there, and what you will be able to heal at those depths.